Thank You Cal by Fly Girl
I was recently kicked off the mailing list community I dreamed up and founded 4 years ago. The issue was security. I can write volumes about it, but I don't have the energy for it tonight. I talked about it a little on a moderator's list I am on, and no one answered. No one likes a failure. People are scared of real emotion. They want to put up a business face so they will get hired for jobs in the field. I wonder if I will ever get hired for anything. Why community for me? I wanted to create a place where voices sing so everyone can revel in the chorus. And then I read a piece like yours, and I think maybe there is still a spark left inside. Maybe there are still voices willing to sing. I am at a low in my life at the moment. Low in confidence. Broken as an artist. Wondering if online life will ever be kind to me again. Thanks for writing to us, Cal. Thanks for sharing. I need a place to share, too. Maybe I'll start writing more things for this messageboard. |